Won my life

My bones want to melt

My muscles want to let go

My body wants to stop

Walking, Struggling, Fighting

For air, for life.

My mind painted a picture for me,

But now its all black and white.

The trees are bent, tired, closed.

My heart, the same

But still, my thoughts keep talking,

Walking, Struggling, Fighting

For air, for life.

How can you erase a picture so clear?

So real?

Tell me how to erase myself from it,

And lay my own tired steps to rest.

I see

I am stumbling,

Not walking.

I am tripping now,

Not talking.

There is a pain inside my chest

Born of silence, grief, unrest

Who’s there but me to claim it?

Who knows but me to name it?

I am sorry for my apathy.

I am circling now through forests

Trying to find my niche.

My mind and body

are numb,

Only dragging.

Please come,

If only to quiet my thoughts.

I am no longer

Walking,

Struggling,

Fighting.

I’ve won the air.

I’ve won my life.